I feel good about the apartment. Signing the lease terrified me and I didn't like it much, but I truly believe that moving into this apartment will be the best thing that has happened as far as my life outside of academics goes, at least recently. I certainly don't mean ever, but with this out provided to live somewhere other than with Alex in this uncomfortable environment has been such a burden off my shoulders. I have been SO terribly unhappy here- I didn't realize how much it was affecting me until I got a chance to not let it. So things will be better. I'm pleased. Hopeful. The shit that Alex pulls doesn't seem nearly so dire when I tell myself that while it was an expensive and stressful learning experience, I will NEVER have to put up with her shit again if I don't want to. And I don't. We were never friends really; we got along well enough but one on one we never really had anything to say to each other. I see no reason to pretend like this living situation hasn't destroyed any possibility of me getting along with her. I harbor nothing but ill will towards her and cannot stand it when good things happen to her- honestly. I am filled with spite when it comes to Alex but know that I'll get over it soon enough. I'm only upset about it today because they were such assholes this morning. I was showering and Gm came in and said that Alex and Steve were going to brunch at Pix, the fabulous French patisserie place, and that we were invited to go along. So I quickly got out and dressed and the two of them suddenly got up from their computers and swanned out the door, leaving Gm and I speechless.

Later they called, saying they were at Pix and would save us a spot at the table if we wanted to come on, but damn it all. Who the hell does that? What sort of just completely rude terrible person pulls that sort of thing? I never cease to be amazed by the vindictiveness of Alex and her selfish ways- I always think that they've sort of bottomed out and then she manages to think up a new way to fuck us. I simply don't understand what makes a person so thoughtless and horrid. It's unnatural.

*sigh*